I wish I could change the past, and believe in the future, my future.
I also wish I could have this magical wand, which could make my every wish come true, but let's say it fairly, it will not happen, not in a billion years.

Life sucks, and apparently that is not just my personal opinion . Have heard it many times , coming out from different people's mouths and as my morals are usually based on the majority of people , I have to also agree in this case , not just because I think so.

Must also admit, I am completely knackered. The utter rush , that's been in my school for the past couple of weeks is insanely tiring. Everyone wants something from you , keep on forgeting , that except the other subjects we do have, and we do revise for , we actually do have a life as well. Sort of shit at some points, but still - a life. And as a matter of fact , even though I am this though example of an irrational nerd these days , it doesn't mean I don't end up completely wasted at the pub some days ,when my tiredness stop me from controlling myself.

Well... I'm assuming that's going to last for the next 5 months, and afterwards I will literally fuck everything and piss off to Italy /Spain / Australia for the best holidays in my life.

The couples are not the future.
There is something more than that.
You need a backup to actually live properly, because what if one day the person you love will be gone,forever ,what then ?
People need to feel safe not just because of the way love affects them. They need to feel like they are not dependent on this one particular person , like in emergency state they would be able to cope. With themselves and with their lifes , what sometimes is not easy at all.
People need each other , every single day . Sometimes it is just about a random thing like shopping with your best mate ,or gossiping, but one day , it may be about something much deeper than that.
Don't ask me why I wrote this.
Maybe because watching About a boy for the milion time made me think of it.
Or maybe because I'm just trying to find an explanation for the crap things that are involved in my life ,not making much of a sense.

I must admit it. I completely forgot about my own, private world which is this blog, and was moving on with my life - the real one.
Didn't work out everything I wanted but at last I made an effort to do it.
So the New Year started, quite eventfuly I'd say ,however I already got put into many awkward situations- not pleased with that,at all.
New Years Resolutions?
Possibly quit smoking,
stop being extremely lazy,
and just try to be a better person, knowing that things do change, whether we want it or not,and that I can't blame myself forever for the mistakes I made in the past.
Because everything happens for a reason.