It's been a while, not going to pretend it hasn't.

2009 has been the most difficult year of my entire life and we're at the end of March. Let's not go into details about the whole thing but I can't say I have much to rave about it and I'm not going to bet on it getting much better as I my whole world is just a big mess of confusion; And this isn't just some teenage crisis of a year.

I'm in it for the rough and tumble though, I know eventually everything will fall into place but I also know that that could take a lot of time and for once in my life I have to be patient and take things slowly rather than rushing around making ridiculous plans and promises to myself. I have big ideas but I'm choosing my path carefully (and sensibly, sigh) and I'm hoping it will all pay off.

In the meantime, I am going to make myself get my happines back and probably consider the trip to Paris - the next week,or week after.
I deserve now some rest at least.